Explaining A Universe

How do you begin to explain it?

How do you explain not just a being or world but an entire universe?

Where do you even begin attempting to explain something of such magnitude?

It has existed within my mind and heart for almost two years and yet still I can't fully explain it.

Part of me feels bad of the idea of breaking something so vast into chunks and delivering it out in such manner, yet many others of such scale have done just so.

Nobody would question the reason nor rationale for such tales to be cast in pieces like a vast puzzle, bound together by direction, purpose and ambition.

In effect my fourth book now becomes my fourth and fifth or my fourth, fifth and sixth depending on scale. Whilst I begrudge the notion of that, it does at least set my mind at some kind of ease knowing that it must be so.

There are so many stories that I wish to tell, tales of beings enduring horror but overcoming themselves to emerge like a phoenix rising from the ashes of despair and becoming a beacon of hope against an otherwise bleak world.

In truth there are so many that I sometimes wonder if I will ever truly tell of them all, stories that are immense, intense, immersive and haunt a reader far beyond the final pages read.

Vast stories require an equally incredible scale to make them even feasible, but in truth I doubt that I can truly do it any other way. These tales may take far longer to tell, commanding me to re-evaluate everything that I can do and push me to my brink but then if you truly love your craft what real sacrifice is time?

Although this year I haven't made the progress with Scorpio's tale that I had hoped, I now realise this is because I want to create something with such incredible depth that I needed to fully change and rethink every single aspect of everything and anything that I do.

This realisation has all but forced me to push myself further and delve deeper into something that I truly love, the real result for me at least is that the ambition to create something of such magnitude has changed everything else to follow suit.

From my first ideas to ideas that haven't even happened yet, everything that I now do and in the future is designed to go deeper and further than ever before. It comes at personal expense and commitment, but when you truly love something, then there is truly no other way.

Anyone who plants an acorn, does so knowing that they may never bask in the shadows of the seed they have sewn.

However I know that should I find shelter in the shadows of this project, that I may never escape the shadow cast by Scorpio.